Meaning to Be
Try again, she said,
this friend who refused my grief.
That baby was not meant to be.
But, I want to say,
My baby meant to be.
She was meaning to be.
She had meant to be.
My baby’s breath & tongue, still.
The friend’s voice continues action alone.
four months old
Zookeepers reported Mei Xiang’s howls
as her baby died.
The Panda-Cam went dark.
We shuttered our windows.
Our pregnant neighbors didn’t say anything
and neither did I.
My second pregnancy ended
in a C-section. I heard
his first wails in this dry world from behind a sheet.
His entry point: a horizon on my abdomen,
where I fold to lift him.
Chloe Yelena Miller is a writer who lives in Washington, D.C., with her husband and child. Her poetry chapbook, Unrest, was published by Finishing Line Press (2013). She teaches writing at Politics & Prose bookstore, online at University of Maryland University College and Fairleigh Dickinson University, as well as privately. (chloeyelenamiller.com)